Sunday, February 17, 2013

BAD at this blogging deal...

Hello Hello!!
I must first off apologize for being so terrible at this blogging business.
I am not cut out to be a journalist that's for sure!
So a lot has happened since I last posted.  Most of you follow me either on Facebook or via text messages and phone calls. So you are all probably fully aware of what's been going on with me.  I'll update anyways, just in case someone isn't aware.
I saw Dr. Borst about 2 weeks ago (two weeks on Tuesday) he did a physical in which I have gotten the results official in the mail to my PAP and it was NORMAL!!!! YAY YAY!!! :) That's my first piece of good news! When he did the physical he did tell me everything appeared to be normal.  Now we know for sure it was.  After the physical and spending some time with Dr. Borst (him answering my questions) I was sent off to the lab to have blood drawn to see what my levels were.  Ten minutes later I was getting the lab results.  My platelets were 37!!! Not the good news we wanted.  Meeting with Dr. Borst he informed me that my platelets were TOO low to do my last round of treatment.  So we were going to stop treatment at five rounds. I have been praying that God will help heal me, take this monster away and give me my life back.  The life of normal physicals, no more labs, not many doctor appointments, life with hair. Ha Ha the life where I can work out, go to school and work.  Be a normal 28 year old.  I prayed that if my levels were low that the five rounds would be enough to kill the monster living inside me and keep it away.  FOR GOOD.  I thank God each and every day and still thank him for giving me each day, whether it be a good day or a bad day.  I prayed for comfort when I did finally find out if I would have five rounds or six.  God is Good, he has been very good to me.  When I meet with Dr. Borst and he finally gave me the word that my levels were 37 and too low for cycle six of chemo, that  five rounds was it.  I felt as though a HUGE weight had been lifted.  I felt like my life was just beginning.  As he put it this could be a way of my body telling me ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!  I believe there is a reason for everything.  We may not know it at the time being, but sooner or later we will find out just what the reasoning behind everything is.  Thinking back a few weeks prior.  I was admitted to the hospital for what we later found out was the fluid pockets in my pelvis.  I was treated for infection and released.  The ENTIRE time I was in the hospital (almost a week) My labs were outstanding!!!  My WBC was seven and eight's! My WBC hasn't been that high since before I started treatment, so almost six months! My platelets were low in the hospital but that was nothing new.  I was suppose to have my last round of chemo the Monday I was admitted and since I was inpatient I wasn't getting chemo.  Once I was released from the hospital and got my labs done all my levels were low low.  To me that is a sign I wasn't suppose to have the last round of chemo.  Dr. Borst told me he wanted me off work for at least another six weeks or until my platelets were back up to normal.  The second week I had labs drawn (last week) my platelets were up from the week prior from 37 to 50.  They need to be at least 100 or higher.  Second piece of good news, they are at least going in the right direction! He had also told me he wanted me to have a PET Scan in six weeks.  I should have that in mid March and will meet with him shortly after to get the results and hopefully be released to return back to work.  I am so thankful I have six weeks to recover and get my strength up before going back to work.  More so that the longer I wait to return back the closer we are to flu season being over.
It's been about six weeks since my last round of chemo.  I am finally getting to the point where I can go all day without having to take a nap.  I have started walking everyday...I go for a walk in the mornings with Sophia and Bailey and we walk about a mile.  I get almost all the way around before I want to stop and rest.  I don't stop, I keep going, I push myself to get home before I sit and rest.  Sophia and Bailey love our walks! It's a perfect way to start the day off!!  I tried for the gym today! I was only there about 30-45 minutes.  I walked on the treadmill for about 15 minutes at a very fast paced walk with a steep incline.  KICKED. MY. ASS.  I then did a few leg and arm machines and was spent.  I want to become a runner.  Many times I have had the same dream.  I am running and it feels so good.  I am just running and running and I just can't get enough of it.  So after having this dream about ten times I have decided its a sign I need to become a runner.  I have made a promise to myself that I will become a runner and I will get in shape and I WILL run the half PF Chang's Marathon next January.  My good friend Christina is a marathon gal.  She has made the commitment to me to train me over the next year to get me ready and she will run the marathon with me next year. The marathon is 13 1/2 miles.  Can you believe it.  I am going to attempt to run 13 1/2 miles.  I didn't say I was going to come in first, or even in the top 300!!! ha ha ha but I will run that damn marathon and I will cross the finish line if it's the last thing I do.  Mark my words! :) I am well on my way! I told her we would start training in March; I have already started a little bit a head of schedule!
Next mile marker is my CLEAR PET SCAN in mid March! I know it will be clear! I know we have killed that little poisonous monster living inside of me.  Now just to keep it away and to never return that is the next big step. I will keep you all posted on when my PET Scan is scheduled and when I get my clean bill of health! :) There will be a celebration!
As always I thank you, each and every one of you for reading my blog. Thank you for all the love and support you have shown me over the last six months.  Thank you for encouraging me to never give up.  Thank you for all the inspiration.  Thank you for being YOU! I am one lucky girl to have found such beautiful and amazing family and friends.  You all make up a part of me, to you I am thankful.
I love you!